Category Archives: borderline personality disorder
The Invisible Illness
My independent personality, although it can be a positive virtue to have, inhibits my ability to fall on others and admit when things are destroying me. I hide behind a mask, a mask that disguises the torture penetrating through my … Continue reading
I like people too much, or not at all.
I drift in and out of people’s lives, Like a feather in the breeze, You never really know I’m there, Until I start to leave, I don’t make my connections deep, Because I’m scared of what I’ll lose, I don’t … Continue reading
I feel too fat to have an eating disorder.
I’m accomplished. I’m successful in many ways. I’m intelligent. I’m ambitious. I’m kind and compassionate and thoughtful and passionate about helping when I can for who I can. I’m genuine. I’m trustworthy and I’m honest. I’m a student studying Human … Continue reading
My problem is, I don’t want to eat but when I do I hate myself a little bit more.
It’s incredibly shameful really that everyday recently, day in, day out I binge. I’m wasting food, wasting money and wasting life. Why can’t I just stop this and be normal, just for once. It’s humiliating for me and embarrassing. I … Continue reading
I know what it is like to hurt to smile. How you try to fit in but you can’t. How you hurt yourself on the outside; to try and kill the thing on the inside.
Everyday, for as long as I can remember, I have felt like nothing, empty, numb. I walk through the streets, get on the bus, spend the day at university, come home to my house mates – nothing. It isn’t them, … Continue reading